i'm sorry if you upset with my blog...coz this blog is not for update only for kpop...i was their fans but my focus not only them....so, i read about them from other site...this blog was made just for fun, when i happy, sad, all are about me...

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Drama dan movie di MALAYSIA

Okay...
lame x menulis rase nk merapu panjang2...sape yg terbace post sye nie...x suke...ignore it..haha

for the first time ever, there is a drama play in malaysia that contain some informative knowledge.... which is on Bells palsy...wlaupn sikit...at lease they introduce that kind of disease to the public... xd la kate kene buatan orang la and so on...All thanks to #RinAhmad because she wrote novel with full of knowledge...most of hers..her writing are awesome..

actually, byk knowledge yang dikurangkan dlam drama Bimbo nie...xp, ak sarankan korang carik novel die...bak kate kak rin ahmad...die kate, diorg adaptasi novel Bimbo ke drama tp its not that exactly 100% same...tapi seriously, g la carik novel die..yg terbaru Jejaka Edisi Terhad aka JET...dulu ad GET..

hope akan datang,orang yang buat drama kt Malaysia niakan pikir jauh...Kaji dulu and choose some informative theme....Asik cintuunnn saje...mcm drama Married Tapi Benci tu..Oh My GOOOOODDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!! eeuuuuu,...i don't know...something wrong somewhere bg aku drama tu....Apakah? x membina langsung untuk di tonton...Lagi satu, tundukkan playboy itu...saye tgk la jugk...sebb jatuh hati dengan hero...tpi drama tu pown agak x membina la...xd komen sgt...sebb itu adaptasi novel and sye x bace pon novel nye...ade org kate lain dr novel....so...terserah...sye cube smpikan...sebb rakyat malaysia dh ramai yg suka menonton drama...dr segala peringkat umur...ape kate cube buat drama yg boleh deliver some knowledge kpd penonton....it's not exactly like documentary...just introduce some different issue...

ni name nye penangan drama korea...ade je drama korea yg just love saje tp most of it mesti informative...nape kite x buat...buat la drama tntg islamic family...buat ade isi...macam filem munafik yg aku tgk...

perrggghhhh...memg "THUMBS UP" ak bg kt shamsul yusof...tip top! improve lagi...filem die leh g international...filem die boleh masuk Asia Film Festival yg selalu buat kt Jepun tu...betol x...?? memg tip top....informative kot dlm tu...org akan amek iktibar...bkn just tgk saje...pastu kate...uuuu....serrrraaaammmm....tgk pada pengisian movie tu...memg terbaik...keep it up Shamsul Yusof...

ok la...merapu dh makin panjang..jp lagi keluar bermacam drama and movie...

yg penting ape yg nk disampaikan di tv itu hendaklah yg memberi manfaat kepada society...so, boleh improve society's life...

alright...Good Night..

Thursday, February 18, 2016

don't be a JUDGER

Hye...
dh memlm nk tido nie sebb tgk drama ISTERI vs TUNANG and AKU PILIH KAMU...mate jadi bulat and terfikir nk menukil kan something..


okay,

lets make something clear...somhow org kite suke judge org on surface sedangkan die tak tau, yg die judge tu lebih kurang sme je konsep nye...cume subjek mungkin berlainan... I mean subjek tu perkara yg di judge la kn...


mcm ape yg ak terima ari nie..di FB...yes memg ak suke menonton cerita korea, I love kpop...so, what's the problem? thats doesn't mean i should marry korean people...its about jodoh, if you meant to be, then, it is...Ketentuan Allah. It's not like ak mohon tiap2 mlm dpt org korea....xd la smpi mcm tue, ork melayu kite pown x kurg hebat nye...cume kene pandai la kn...your life time decision.


even i like their artist lebih2 lg yg digelar idol. but they are not my idol. I just love their song, kenapa? most of their song is about life...hard life la, love life la...xd la geli geleman mcm lagu omputih, lagu melayu pown ad je yg ak mint...so, i think xd mslh kt cnie...


lg satu pasal drama...

kenapa ak lebih tonton drama korea instead of drama melayu, ak tgk drama melayu sekrg pon sebb mostly adaptasi novel. itu pon still x leh sme, sebb novel byk pengisian. sometimes ad ilmu yg disampaikan. tp bile dijadikan drama, sesetgh ilmu tu tidak diketengahkan. x tau nape...mgkkn diorg takot drama x high rating kot. pastu lg satu sebb ak tgk, sebb pelakon. haha...nampak bias x...mcm syahrul ke, syukri yahya ke...ingt ak x knl ke artis malaysia...kenal la jgk tp xd la rse smpi kene amek tau...same too korean drama and also their actor...i threat same...


cume...


kenapa prefer more korean drama then malay drama
  • more knowledgable (ak suke kalu dpt tonton medical drama)
  • dramatic memg ad, dh nme drama...tp die x haighlight kn sgt...kalu drama melayu...sometime, it's to much
  • ad kualiti, nmpk sgt diorg kaji kalu perkara tu berkaitan dgn law ke, medical ke, political ke...die x terhad pada view penonton sahaja. 
  • bile die sebut something yg term2 rumit nie...memg sush nk phm tp it's something new, we can learn right..? ak kadng2 kamus kt tepi tgk drama, subtitle English. term rumit. so, kamus la tempat rujukan..hehe
  • cintan cintun tu ade, tp jenis ikut culturer die la kn...kite? nape x ikut culturer kite..? kenapa nk too fantasy.

    kadang2 saye rase, drama skrg x perlu buat terlalu fantasy sgt, bahaya. Even budk2 pown kekdg tgk drama. jd nye, kurg kn lebih input byk yg knowledgable sgt puas hati..nie dh melalut jauh bebelan ku..

    berbalik asal topik td, ad ke patot kalu dh minat korea mesti berangan nk kawen ngn org korea. Berangan tu ade la to it's not necessary. ok, nk tny, zaman korg dulu mse tgh giler tgk Hindustan, smpi ad yg berhrp nk kamen dgn org Bangalore ke..?? xd kn...so, fantasy remain fantasy, entertainment also remain the function as entertainer xd nk diubah jd real. so, kene keluar dr fantasy and become real.

    itu lebih baik...

    please la

    don't judge people on surface. You must get to know her or him better.

    LOve berangan :)

Monday, February 15, 2016

D . I . R . I

BISMILLAH

tibe-tibe saje tangan nie nk menukil kan sesuatu berkenaan jodoh dalam Mr. Diary...
dh lame terpinggir Mr.Dairy nie... :)
JODOH?!
ape pandangan kalian...let me story about me a bit...aku bukn lah org yg suke bersosial, mgkn sebab x diajar olah parent...kalu bersosial pown dengan org yg aku kenal atau pon it may have been a reason, example...group study or team for some project..boleh la aku nk beramah mesra...x tau kenape, mgkn sebb impact yg si Dia bg tp si Dia nie xd pown ajak couple ke or janji kan ape2...pelik x aku nie...psycho...haha
nie dh tahap mengata diri sendiri...senget! XD
then, bile die  nie menghilang ak mula la meraban...okay, soal jodoh actually, ak serah soal jodoh nie dekat parent...tapi...like now, i think dh three times sume nye x menjadi...x tau la, ad suei kowt...haha...nk kate x suke, ad sorg one of anak kawan my father, aku agak berkenan dan terima la jugk tp x kn nk ckp terus terang...just wait and see....hehe....x pandai la nk amek hati ke nk ngorat ke...it just, my thinking should men do all of that? ke skeptikal..?? haha...ye la di dalam arus moden nie bak kata ayat kamus dewan kan...bile mamat tu menyatakan ketidaksediaan die nk berumah tangga...i said it's okay, then, that's it. Full stop.
La ni,
lepas bace novel #jejakaedisiterhad karya #RINAHMAD byk bukk mate ak soal jodoh...yelah, jodoh x boleh dipaksa. Yg paling penting ak kene reminder is Jodoh adalah rahsia Allah. It's very secretive. Sangat. So, maybe I can just wait. Allah already has planned for me. Cume ak kene mencuba dari segi mengukuhkan diri dengan iman dan amal. Satu maslah ak kt sini, I am extrovert. I need someone yg boleh motivate me and no one around me like that. Living alone. Parent xd depan mata so everything kene berdikari dan usaha sendiri utk meningkat kn diri. Iman dan Amal sangat penting, kan? Betol x?

Deep thinking
.
.
.
i got this, 
I should improve myself, betolkan mana yg x betol. naik kan taraf mana yg dh dibuat. kira proses rebulid la. make it perfect. Soal jodoh, serah pada Allah, insyaallah. Just make sure, berbakti pada my parent. Agak la, almost more than 10 years i'm not living with my parents. My status? nOw? Single... Age? haha...baru 26. So, ko kene berbakti pada umi ngn buya wlupon kadang2 ad perkara yg buat ko mkn hati, then cry in silent. Always happen. I don't know how to express my feeling. Merajuk? not my thing...haha...SO, please make sure do your best! itu utk Akhirat ko jgk ain!
Hari kiamat ntah bile..seram jgk fikir. Soal jodoh. mcm nie je kesimpulan ak.

YA ALLAH, aku tahu Engkau maha mengetahui segala sesuatu. Perancangn Engkau sangat detail. Setiap ap yg Engkau plan pasti ade sebb nye. Y Allah, soal jodoh ak, Aku serahkan pada Mu. Sebb Engkau sahaja yg sentiasa disisi ak dan sentiasa menyimpan rahsia hati aku. Ya Allah, andai jodohku bkn didunia, Engkau temukan kami di..x tau nk sebut kt mane T_T Ya Allah, ampunkan dosaku. Satu je aku mintak ya Allah, andai jodohku bkn di dunia, Engkau bahagia kn mak ayah aku dengan perkara yg boleh membuatkan mereka lupe yg mrk kene kawen kn anak perempuan sulung mereka. Aku takut umi susah hati. Umi suka fikir yg bukn2. Aku x nk. Aku tahu umi mengharap. Ya Allah, Engkau jauhkan perasaan sebegitu dr umi. Ya Allah, Engkau sahaja yg memberi rahmat. Aku tahu buya sayang nk tinggalkan Jeddah sebb die rase die dh dekt dengan tempat suci Engkau Ya Allah. Kadang2 ak rase serba salah nk suruh buya ngn umi balik duk Malaysia. Diorg pasti rindu sane. Permudahkan urusan mereka. Ya Allah, kuatkan iman dan taqwa ku. Tunjukan ak petunjuk dan hidayah Mu. Setiap kali fikir soal jodoh pasti hati ni sebak, air mata pasti berjuarai. Sesak. Sesak dengan pandangan org, Sesak tgk kebahagiaan org lain, ad anak dan suami di samping. Oleh itu, Ya Allah, ampunkan ak sekiranye pemikiran aku ini salah. Aku mula berfikir, kenape ak nk kesah ak bahagia atau pon x kt dunia nie. Nk mengadu, Allah ade. Nk cerita ak happy ke, sedih ke, stress ke, Allah kn ade. Bicara shaja. Dia pasti mendengar. Kebahagiaan di'sana' pasti kekal. Lebih baik ak harapkan kebahagiaan yg di'sana'. Insyaallah. Ya Allah untuk kesekian kali nye. Kuatkan iman ku, teguhkan taqwa ku, berilah aku pentunjuk dan hidayah Mu, ampuni dosa2 ku.
Ya allah, salurkan kekuatan yg tidak berbelah bg dlm hati ini untuk menghadapi apa shj cabaran dan dugaan kerana hati ini terlalu rapuh tetapi tidak kutunjukkan pada luaran.

Terima kasih Ya Allah kerana masih diberi nafas dan kehidupan pada hari ini. Semoga hari esok lebih baik dr hari ini.

Kesimpulan nya, siapa jodohku? serah kan pada perancangan Allah. yakin lah dan percaya bahawa Allah itu maha mengetahui segala sesuatu. Setiap yg berlaku pasti ade hikmah dan natijah yg terselit di lipatan. Hanya kite sebagai manusia yg lemah ini, samada mampu mengesan nya atau pon tidak. 

Sekian
Love myself from ME

Lets fight for bless of Allah.


Monday, April 13, 2015

Junsu Death Note

Have you heard about it???

Super awesome...x sangke, Korean production have been thinking on doing Death Note on Musical Stage...

mesti awesome....

huhu~

x dpt tgk...

here some trademark that L keep doing in Death Note...and i think Junsu can imitate well what L did

**credit picture to the owner...i'm not own it, just a fans






quite charming right..?? heheh





lepas ak post pasal Syarul Ridzuan ak post pasal Junsu....nmpk x betapa xd keje nye ak nie...hahahahahhahahaha...


Aku Terjatuh

Selak2 tetingkap jaring


tetibe....


Aduuuhhhh~!!!


sakit~!!!! ^_^


;p


korang kenal x mamat nie..???

**jangan mare...merepek memlm jer... hehe**



sape x kenal kan Syarul Ridzuan nie...huhu

die tgh femes sekarang dgn drama Hati Perempuan dan Puteri Bukan Nama Sebenar

Macho habis la die dlm dua2 drama nie..

tp x tau la kn in real life die nie mcm mane...

sekali ak skodeng die punye profil...

OMO!!

1989...

just a year apart from me...

dh tua ak nie rupe nye...hahahahaha....

lupe...

hehe
die ni orang Kuantan...haha...mesti biase mkn ikan patin kn..?? tipu la kalu x penah mkn...

pastu anak 2nk last...

haha...abes ak skoddeng, x penah2 skodeng malaysian artists selain Shila Amzah...haha


hye cik abang Syarul....
kalu awak bace nie...kite nk bg tau....walupon awk femes hope awak leh jage agama awak...tue je...Fighting!! Good Luck in your work...and i saw what you studied before...in aircraft...it's a WOW! ok la...tue jer...see ya... 
;p

Sunday, March 1, 2015

what i need from my future husband...?? ehmm~

NOW DAH BULAN FEBRUARY 2016...ENTRY NIE ASAL JAN 2015. AAANNNNDD....I'M STILL SINGLE...hope my life have full of happiness and blessed from Allah. Insyaallah.

okay...scrol2 FB jumpe menatang nie...sgt accurate la kn...bak kt one of my chingu fb, women instinct biase nye sume same...so...here~




15 things i'm embarassed i need from my future husband.


By Lindsay Tigar for YourTango

I need you... (whoever he is and wherever you are right now.....)

1. To say -- and write -- loving things to me a lot.
I'm absolutely in love with words. And especially loving words. Even if it's as simple as "I love you" on a Post-It by the Keurig once a week, do it. I'll also settle for a text message (or 20), too.




okay, this one...ak rse most women nk fefeling mcm nie...kan..kan..? tp mungkin bg ak, kalu die x tulis pown, die tunjuk kan dgn perbuatan pown dah alhamdulillah...menunjukkan yg die sayang kite dan menghargai kite...



2. To ask my dad for my hand in marriage.
And my mom, too, while you're at it. I know it's old-fashioned, creepy and a bit anti-feminist, but you know what? I don't care. I'm convinced he'll say "yes" and though you might have to fly to North Carolina (please don't Skype, it's tacky) to ask, just think -- my dad will totally make you a steak and pop you a beer while you're there!




Part yg nie sgt penting...my opinion, not only asking to my dad but also my mom. she is important also to me...lebih2 lg my mom have 2 daughter... so, i really hope my fiture husband can make my mom exactly like his mom. He need to appreciate my mom for having me. I know, he has mom and his responsibility but he also must think that his wife's mom also his mom. Bi iznillah~




3. To be adept at balancing our incomes.
Though I'm pretty financially secure, I worry about having enough money more than anything else. I save more than the average mid-20s-something, but I have this irrational fear about it all disappearing. (Maybe because my NYC rent cost nearly double what most mortgages do?) I need you to be grounded on the topic and calm me down when I freak out.




Ehmm...about financing...nk ckp ap ek..?? i think i can handle it on my own...but yeah..even money is important but i think happiness is the true thing that we seek in our life..right? because I have it to little and limited. So, i think when someone give me a BIG happiness i will treasure it so much.



4. To give me a lot of space.
I was raised an only child and those type of kids can go one of two ways: strong and self-made or spoiled. Luckily, I'm the former but I've always had plenty of alone time and it's important to me. It's not you -- I love you already without even meeting you -- it's just that I have to have space to clear my mind. I promise to always come home to you.




Part yg nie pown sgt important though i'm not an only child but I live alone for almost 15 years. Everything i handle it on my own, some problem i Solve it alone, cry alone, make decision alone, have a hard time alone. So, yeah...sometime I need space... but I hope you understand me. I'll try to understand you because I love You right?




5. To have a lot of sex with me.
Oh, and I want a lot of babies, too. I know that gotta-have-you-right-now kind of sex changes the longer you're in a relationship (and especially when children come into the picture) but I always want to feel physically connected to you. And I want you to always view me as the sexiest woman you've ever known. In return, I promise to make an effort, even when I'm absolutely exhausted. I hope you will too.




malu tite dgr point yg nie...sape x nk anak ramai kn...lg la my siblings only 2, so, I hope my children has big sister, big brother, younger sister and brother...so, they have shoulder to cry on when friends are not around, they can laugh together, they can make memories toghether...and they will cherish their siblings relationship. yg pasal sex tue...ehmm..woman need man. but sometime i feel afraid...ehmm~..you never know untill you marry...hehe



6. To listen to me overcommunicate about everything.
I tend to ramble when I feel insecure; it's my way of forcing someone to say something. It's irrational and emotional and often unnecessary but if I don't say it, it'll eat me up inside. This vulnerability is part of the reason why I'm a successful writer, but it's also a downfall.




yes...to my future husband, i' sorry if I always marah2...membebel...sometime bkn sebb u pown...sebb org laen, tp you kne tempias...i'm sorry, hope you understand...because when i live alone, i always cry silently on my bed, when i feel i want to express my angry, i just cry...because i don't know how to say it when i am all alone. kne ckp kt dinding ke...?? cry pown dah face on the wall...harap awak fhm...tue je...saya sayang awak...nasihat awak sgt berguna buat saya... :)




7. To accept that I use six different bottles of shampoo and conditioner.
And at least 25 nail polish colors. Oh, and 10 lipsticks. Okay, fine, I don't need them but one day when I run out mid-shower, do you really want to be the one to run to the store to pick it up for me? Didn't think so.




okay, this is not so me...if you mcm nie...i think i can handle it. Insyaallah~



8. To tell me I don't look fat.
I might one day, but when I come out of our bedroom for some special event and you only muster, "Let's get going," my feelings will be really hurt. I'll pay you compliments and I'll rub your shoulders when you're stressed, so please do the same for me.




yes, compliment really help me alot actually, because sepanjang ak hidup nie, i didn't receive compliment that can build my confidence. I like to give compliment especially to the people i love, so, yeah.......please do the same to me...




9. To not be embarrassed when I cry in movies.
I'm super-independent, self-sufficient and strong, but dramas get me everytime. Sometimes, even comedies. Just bring the tissues to the theater, k?




please don't. saya nampak je mcm kasar, keras...mcm xd perasaan tapi my tears fall easily.




10. To speak your opinion.
I want to be in love with your mind, your heart, what you stand for, what pisses you off, what makes you unique, what makes you turned on -- I want to savor everything. So tell me everything. Share your life with me.




Yes, saye suke kalu awak bg tau, ap yang awk x suke, ap yg awak x puas hati...mungkin ad perkara yg mengguriskan perasaan saya tapi xp, saya suke. I really treasure it. It means a lot. It means i am important person to you. everything you share it with me, luar dalam. no secret. and me too....because i want husbnad yg saya boleh anggap die kawan gurau, kawan gaduh, teman menangis, teman belajar, teman shopping, teman dalam segala hal...die bukn hanye ACT like a BOSS and HUSBAND.




11. To plan regular date night.
Even if it's just in our sweats on a Friday night with takeout and a movie. I hear of couples losing the spark and I haven't even found the spark and yet I'm freaked out about losing it. Can we make a pact that we'll have a date night once a week? I'm cool with pizza and beer and Netflix, just as long as we don't lose each other in our busy lives.




kite bercinta selepas nikah. saya harap awak x malu nk keluar date dengan saya mcm pasangan kekasih. kite pasangan kekasih ap, tp sudah halal kn. peduli ap org nk kate. our culture dh tunggang terbalik, yg couple x halal berpegang tangn kite kate "biase la tue"....yg couple halal...serong2 masyarakat pandang...so, let's date at least every month...kt mane..?? x kesah...pantai, shopping, restoren, park...mane2 la, as long i am with you...



12. To have a mom who likes me.
We don't have to be besties or drink wine together all the time, but I want her to like me. Especially more than she liked your college girlfriend.




Yes, so true. I want to feel having your mom like my own mom. I hope she can accept me the way i am. I hope she can understand me. I knoe she love yoou so much but i hope she can trust me to take care of you.




13. To have a passion.
Or five of them. I never want to be anyone's everything, even yours. I really believe no one can grow in shade and I don't ever want us to feel suffocated by one another. I will support you in whatever you want to join, play or be part of, but have something you love besides me.




mcm saye ckp seblm nie. I want you like my love, friends, my enemy, my whatsoever beside as my loving husband. i will cherish what or any decision you make. but i hope x melanggar syariah...selagi perkara itu memberi manfaat kepada keluarga kite, i'll support you from behind. Insyaallah~ I LOVE YOU



14. To remind me you're sticking around.
Sorry, you can blame Tinder. And OkCupid. And every single bar scene in New York City. I don't have much faith in the opposite sex.




yes, please.....really hope that. i trust you but don't make me have any doubt on you.  LOVE YOU SO MUCH~




15. To feel loved.
And adored. My friends nickname me "love" because it's such a big part of my DNA. And yet in every relationship I've had, I haven't felt loved by the man I was with. Not truly, not fully, and not sincerely. I need to feel love in my bones and see it in your eyes. Why? Because I will love you more than you can imagine, and I need you to feel the same.

can not say anything. though you are not my first love but you are my last love sampai syurga. becuase having you is such a luck in my life. I will cherish it. I really appreciate because you can accept me the way i am. I hope that I can feel your love untill in my bone. saya adalah org yg agak setia, yg saya akan sayang awak lebih dari awak sayang saya. x caye...?? you'll see it. I'll do everything for you lillahitaala... you are my precious. how could me not love you.

THANK YOU for accepting me my future husband. hope our marriage will last long until jannah. kerana ISTIKHARAH i am accpeting you. Perancangan DIA maha hebat dan sempurna. Sebuah pasangan itu tercipta adalah untuk melengkapi supaya kita rasa bersyukur dengan apa yang Dia beri. Alhamdullillah~

Sayang Awak.........


This article originally appeared on YourTango.
.....
Lindsay Tigar is a 26-year-old single writer, editor, and blogger living in New York City. She started her popular dating blog, Confessions of a Love Addict, after one too many terrible dates with tall, emotionally unavailable men (her personal weakness) and is now developing a book about it, represented by the James Fitzgerald Agency.





from your future wife yg dh berangan macam2...
Girls kan...
hehe~never escape berangan...hope one day it will become reality, because i want perfect happy family. Insyaallah~

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Chocolate

Choco...? Chocolate? Life...??


yes...kadang2 kite kutuk kehadiran coklat, kite ckp coklat boleh menggemukkan..tapi sedar tak kite yang coklat byk membantu dlm emosi kite...


kenapa kehidupan kite x boleh jadi mcm coklat? lembut didalam...keras diluar...bila digigit, smooth je masuk mulut kite...kemanisan die menguasai dlm mulu kite...hilang dah rase yg mase kite gigit tue, hany tinggal kemanisan dan di selang selikan dengan kepahitan koko itu sendiri....itu lah kehidupan...


Saya baru lpas ckp dgn my superhero, kadang2 saya rase, ap yg saya nk x smpi...kan bagus sekali sekala kite bercakap, kite cite tentang kehidupan, mcm mane ngajar, makan ap ari nie...masak ape...buat ape...kite duduk x sekali, jauh....bukan dipisahkan oleh sempadan sahaja tapi laut cina selatan...siap ad lautan hindi lagi...fahami lah saya...ini tidak, tanya tentang bisnes? yg saye rase sye sgt x nk dgr bile berckp dgn diorg...adakah saya seorang yang x mengenang budi...??


air mata owh air mata...
kau sajalah yang memahami apa yang terbuku
di lubuk hati ini..
sangat dalam
dahulu
apabila mereka bertanya
aku jawab "tidak mengapa, sudah biasa"
pabila sudah meningkat umur...
sudah ada pekerjaan
aku mula terasa keseorangan
ak mula persoal kan
kenapa aku rase begini..?
kenapa aku seorang?
mereka ad keluarga....aku?
kenapa aku kena menempuh semua ini seorang?
kenapa dan kenapa sering menujah pemekiran ku
ak mula mengharap mereka pulang
menetap semula di tanah air
sehingga
satu hari
bait-bait ini keluar dari percakapan ku
"saya x tua lagi tok, tapi saya sudah merasa hidup mcm atok, keseorangan, sunyi"
atok gelak jer...orang tua...
anak2 saudara menjadi penghibur
mereka nakal
tapi itu yang membuatkan saya tersenyum
melihat mereka membesar
telatah mereka
keletah mereka
ketawa mereka
itu yang paling saya hargai dalam hidup saya sekarang
apa yang saya lihat
yang dapat buat saya gembira
dengan sepenuh hati
sehinggakan kira nya ade perkara yang sepatotnya seorang ibu yang merasa sakit
saya pown turut terasa
Sayang nya Allah je yang tau
tetapi saya hanya mempu sorok kan sahaja
siapalah saya
Ya Allah
aku faham bile orang kata
Allah tidak akan menguji hambanya di luar kemampuan hambanya
tetapi entah mengapa
semakin hari semakin berat rasanya
ingin ku bawa diri ini
tetapi ke mana
untuk ape
pernah ku fikir utk membawa diri jauh di perantauan
tetapi tidak kesampaian
itulah
kita yang merancang tetapi Allah yang menentukan
Allahu rabbi
Allahu akbar
Subhanallah
Astaghfirullah
Astaghfirullah
Astaghfirullah


Tenang kan lah hambu mu ini. Ya Allah, hidupkan aku dengan iman, matikan aku dengan iman, permudahkan urusanku dengan iman, berikan ak kemudahan dengan iman serta taqwa.


insyaallah~


Nukilan
Hamba yang lemah kuat
terima kasih naqib, nuqman, naurah...buah hati mak long sampai bile2...
^_^